If Only I were in sahara on a beautiful night, I should have count those stars…one…two…three…four…. five…six…seven…a billion (much better than waiting Mr.”Who Appreciate Technology” comes and make donations to our R&D Dept.)
My hairs turn white just like Mak Lampir…. too much thinking I guess…
Many months now n’ counting…. our research and development team gain more knowledge…. more innovation…but still…our head banging on that rocks…fund. Fund…fund…yet NO FUN at all….
Should I sacrifice my chauvinism to Mother Pertiwi? Well at least some of my friends said that I am chauvinistic than nationalist…. Really ? Do I love my country that much? Fuiiihh…scary…
How can someone who is chauvinistic (to her country, which is in the East part of the world) can also have a West-minded thought?
Am I a coin with two different sides? Well…. if I am, then I am rich in terms of life-value.
Banging my head on the rocks again….ooohh Gosh…..who will support and funding our R&D team?
Actually, this Multimedia Research makes me dreaming of the new Indonesia, who can struggle, survive and win in technology….
Gosh if only the government is smart enough to always seeking opportunity that is promising.
Hmm… remembering that tempted offer in Schlumberger Technology Center in the UK that I turned down, and Microsoft that I also turned down. Am I only enjoying applying? Hmm…
Millions of people looking out for that position …and I turned it down when they offer me a position? Am I idealist or just simply stupid?
Well…what can I say…I like solving things my way, creating things that some people thought I am only dreaming
Several months now struggling with assembler, fiber optics, micro controller, material of semiconductors, managing tough men(this one only joking guys, you are indeed very cooperating) bla bla bla…..while maybe all of my friends living a normal life, having cute babies, enjoying their motherhood, office from nine to five, clubbing, and sleeping at normal hours…. Making a fix income every month…how nice
And me? I have to think of my employees, and their family…. how to further our R&D dept…. how to strategize in marketing…bla bla bla… have to responsible of my own decision, and no matter how, have to accomplish my objectives…. so help me God!!
Well…hope Mr.”Who Appreciate Technology” will come and make a contribution to our R&D dept..
Yup…just like my idol BK said “Always forward and never retreat”
In time, maybe my chauvinism will surrender, for the sake of our objectives…and when everybody asking why do I turn 180 degrees… certainly they are forgetting how hard it is to funding our research…
Back to the question…. would you rather be a Dragon’s tail or Snake’s head?
Dedicated to our R&D Dept Team; Dr. Soetikno, bang Sof, Kang Koes, Pak Iwan, Pak Deni, Mas Amri, Mas Subur, Pak Hadi, and last but not least the greatest support from my husband…tout est possible car j’avais ton encouragement. Je remerci tous qu’il m`aide avec l`esprit et d`encouragement.
Tulisan ini dibuat pada 11 May 2007 sebagai bagian dari kontemplasi yang kontradiktif sebuah perjuangan mencapai cita-cita…